The chubby girl's dance career and her mental victory method

July 30

The chubby girl's dance career

Now, I've gotten used to eating very little and drinking very little water every day, but doing a lot of exercise.

In the morning, I walk with my dad to take my mom to work, and then we walk from Fuxingmen Street, where her workplace is located, to Wangfujing to go shopping. I've lost count of how many times I've walked this route in the past month. Now I can even catch a bus in high heels. All the hard work pays off; I've already gained 139 pounds.

I've realized I seem to need more exercise because my body has gotten used to this level of activity, which is somewhat slowing down my weight loss. I think what I need now is to increase the intensity or volume of my exercise, or perhaps try a different type of exercise. I don't like going to the gym because I don't want to endure the disapproving looks from others, and even when I'm swimming, I only go when there are fewer people. All the fitness activities suitable for the general public are irrelevant to me. I have to exercise secretly.

Just yesterday, I saw a news report about a female singer who lost 15 pounds in a month while rehearsing dances for her new album. Suddenly, I felt a strong urge to dance myself. Dancing, a sport I haven't touched since kindergarten, is now something I'm revisiting because of my weight loss. I can't dance at all, and going to a dance studio would be incredibly embarrassing. So, I decided to learn at home. I bought some music videos of upbeat songs and tried to imitate them. I bought a compilation DVD of Jolin Tsai's songs and started with "Goodbye," which wasn't too fast-paced. I thought the dance steps, which didn't seem too exaggerated, would be easy to learn, but I struggled from 4 pm after swimming until 8 pm, when it was already dark, and still hadn't mastered it. I don't know if I'm just stupid, or if the dances I chose were too difficult. Anyway, that's not the point. What made me happiest was that my clothes were soaked with sweat after a few hours, and big beads of sweat were hanging from my nose. All of this shows that the exercise was effective. Sure enough, when I weighed myself, I had lost almost a pound, now I weigh 138 pounds. I was happy! It seems this method works. I've decided to use half of my running time for dancing and the other half for running, so I won't feel bored. Here I want to give a special shout-out to my dad; he secretly watched me dance and grinned mischievously.

A delicious aroma wafted from the kitchen; anyone could tell it was Mom's signature braised pig's trotters. "Is it delicious? Delicious! Want some more? Give me another piece!" I imagined myself eating the trotters. Okay, enough daydreaming. I had already mentally eaten four huge pig's trotters, feeling incredibly satisfied. Then, I gratefully called out to Mom in the kitchen, "It tastes great, Mom, I'm full."

When I went for my evening run, I could only manage 40 minutes before I couldn't go on anymore. It was probably because I was too tired from dancing this afternoon and my stamina was depleted. So today, I took a 20-minute break. I was planning to lie in bed and relax in the air conditioning, but I ended up falling asleep. If my mom hadn't asked me something, I think I probably would have slept until dawn.

I can stick to losing weight.

Keywords: Mental victory method -- eating 4 large pig trotters

August 5

Reach the target of 40 jin

I laughed as soon as I weighed myself this morning. Why? Because I realized I'm practically a miracle worker now! Whatever I say comes true. A month ago, I said I planned to lose 40 pounds by today, and I really did! I'm 132 pounds now, I can't help but cheer! Although others might still think I'm fat, compared to myself a month ago, this is a huge change.

Today while swimming, I saw that mother and daughter again-the same mother who laughed at me the first time I went swimming. I guess my weight is about the same as hers now. Observing them more closely, I discovered that she brings her child to swimming lessons on certain days every week. Thinking about this, a smile crept onto my lips. As the saying goes, revenge may be delayed, but it will come. When the time comes, my great vengeance will be served.

While shopping in Xidan, I ran into two high school classmates. They walked past me face to face, and one of them suddenly said to the other, "Hey, that girl looks like Mo Xuan! But if it's her, why has she lost so much weight!" Then the other one ran over, patted my shoulder, and called my name. Based on what she had done before, I was quite certain she just wanted to know if that person was me, and it definitely wasn't out of friendship. I turned around, looked at her, and calmly said, "Miss, I think..." Oh?! Oh... I'm sorry..." She turned and walked away.

In the crowd, I heard her say to the person next to her: "I told you she wasn't. Mo Xuan is so fat, how could she be? Although that woman is also quite fat, she's at least much better looking than Mo Xuan."

I really had the urge to punch her. Just because you weigh 80-something pounds doesn't mean you're something special. Any celebrity is thinner than you. But then I thought, I didn't admit it was Mo Xuan earlier because I disdain people like that. Getting impulsive now would be pointless. I shouldn't get angry; it would only hurt myself. Back in junior high, all the way into high school, she'd always drag a bunch of self-proclaimed beauties around, laughing at me, saying that five of their outfits put together would only be the size of one of mine. Her attitude was truly disgusting. Weight alone doesn't define beauty. That night, after running for an hour at home, I ran two laps around the neighborhood. Whether it was to vent or self-torture, I just wanted to lose weight.